Nemocycles

I polished my makeup one last time and headed back to the restaurant. I hoped the mask I was wearing to cover the hurt would stay intact and I didn't have to excuse myself again. I walked towards Jude, I never really noticed how good looking he was, and as his stood up to meet me, I noticed how kind his eyes were. He pulled a chair for  me and then went to sit across the small table from me. I could really be happy with him. I could learn to love him. I mean, people do that all the time don't they? He called to the waiter and asked for the wine list. As the waiter turn, his soft brown eyes turned to look at me. " I love you Lexi...." "Ohhh noo......" My heart couldn't keep an opinion to itself for five minutes. " I told you he was going to do this...all you had to do was listen to me....you always going with what the head says...this is going to be a disaster" I didn't take my eyes off of him. I didn't want him to know that I was no...

I sit, listening to you running your mouth, You are like cricket that will not shut up, I sit here, The sound of your voice makes me want to throw up.. I sit here premeditating your death, I imagine how better life will be without you... My heart smiles, as I imagine myself driving a stake through your evil heart (if you even have one) The look in your eyes as you fall to the ground Your last breath as you beg for help.. Help? The help you gave the enemy to destroy other lives, I watch as you gasp for air, As the pool of blood spreads under your body, I wait till there is no pulse left, Then listen to the peace... I can hear the birds sing at a distance, I can hear the train and the traffic and every else Your noise no longer ruins my life, Your noise no longer ruins other people's lives, I imagine your epitaph, What will your head stone read? Perhaps, "here lays a selfish person, who cared who nothing but them self" or "  a heartless bitch...