Nemocycles

After the tiring day I had today all I wanted was to sit on my balcony, pour some chilled white wine and finish reading 50 shades of Grey by E. L James. My mind was a bit preoccupied though, distracted could be a better word. Mostly by Christian Grey.... I smiled at the thought of this man, in my mind he was a god, he was perfection, I guess his indecent proposal made me think of him as the kind of guy you look at from a far and never really get with. I had my own god, who wanted everything to do with me. I pulled out the letter he had sent to me this morning, I had read it a hundred times over already, it looked like it was sent to me years ago. I smiled. My dear Isabel, I hope you have been well. Am from doing my usual morning run which is the only distraction I have that keeps me from going crazy. I miss you Bella, your face, your eyes, your laugh...I even miss that thing you do with your nose when you are irritated...but mostly my dear Bella I miss your smile, the way it ar

Choosing a path means having to miss out on other things. I have my whole life a head of me and am mostly wondering if in the future I will come to regret the choices I have make now. I was not afraid of committing myself before, now I think I have this strange phobia to anything that could mean serious. I want to follow all possible paths and I worry that I might end up following none. After all the romantic disappointments, can I give of myself entirely? I fear pain, loss and rejection. These things will be inevitable on the path of love, and the only way of avoiding them is by deciding NEVER to take that path at all. In order not to suffer, I have to denounce love. Its like pulling out my own eyes not to see the bad things in life..

 You & Me... a party for two, a lovely melody at a distance, a full moon and ten thousand stars, the perfect night, none less than id hoped for, several sweet kisses, tender embraces the cool summer breeze sweeping over us, am so grateful for this secluded space tonight no guests are needed we'll serve in our own delight dressed in a gown and a tuxedo what an elegant sight candles glowing the warmth of such inspired love no distracting crowd shared pleasure is all we think of praising the quiet time our closeness is made sure left alone with such passion our bodies a perfect mixture a party for two we dine in ecstasy treating desires one to one the hours pass so wonderfully the air is fragrant we become even closer feeling all of loves magic appearing when we are together the stage is all ours for the most sensual show performed without an audience not a thought about tomorrow a midnight duet how beautiful it sounds played smoothly in darling souls Exotic harmonies abound Do