Nemocycles

I wish the best for you, I wish you love, I wish you good health, I wish the very best for you... I wish you could see yourself through my eyes, See just how  perfect you look to me, Just how lovely and beautiful is that smile, I wish the very best for you... I wish I could validate all of my best days, So that I can erase all of your fears, So that I can dry all of your tears, I wish the very best for you.. I know sometimes good intentions do not come across well, I know sometimes what you want is no what you get, I pray that life keeps throwing a bunch of bliss at you, I wish the very best for you... I give you my heart, And promise to love, Forget the past and all the hurt, I wish the very best for you....

[i carry your heart with me(i carry it in] By E. E. Cummings   i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)i am never without it(anywhere i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling)                                                       i fear no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true) and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows higher than soul can hope or mi...

I sit here waiting to see your face, waiting to see the love or anger that is in your eyes. Those eyes that could light a thousand nights. I sit here and hope for your kiss, either one filled with love or anger doesn't matter I know I can't live without it. I sit here and your touch I miss, so much my life feels lonely and empty without it. I sit here and hope to smell your scent, that sweet fragrance that reminds me of flowers and calms my mind. I sit here and think of the hole in my whole whenever you are way. I think about what a  meaningless mess my life would be if you were not seating here across me. I sit here and think about how you are all that I want, I think of how hard it is for you to believe that a love like this could exist. I sit here and think of the silly fights, how a day without talking to you feels like music without sound. I think about the moment of introduction, about your charm and seduction. I wonder if the moments we are together, are as ...

Sometimes we find solace in the strangest of places, sometimes what you expected turns out to be completely different. After a while you realize just how important it is to keep and open mind, just how much easier it is to look at the glass half full. A lot of things happen in our lives and at the particular moment you have no idea why they are happening. We hurt, we cry... we lose ourselves in the wrong kind of people or get involved in wrong kind of thing.We fall in love and we give everything to someone and hope with every fibre in your being that this person will not break your heart. But more often than not they do, sometimes the don't mean to do it, but it happens anyway.And we do the only humane thing, we shut out the rest of humanity lock ourselves up in some dark closet and hurt. We cry, we get drunk and go completely off the rails. We hate, find solace in the arms of strangers and we hope that our hearts can be curved out of chests and put away in a box. We become stran...

Sometimes goodbye is the only way... We loved each other more than anything in the world, but as life would have it, love is not always enough. I looked at him, he was starring out into the world. Deep in thought, or maybe just dumbfounded. This wasn't the first time we had had this conversation, we had even gone our separate ways several times, but something was different about this time, it felt like it was the last time. I wiped the tears from my eyes and looked out in the balcony, it was a beautiful night. We sat there in silence and watched the night, the crickets making a sweet symphony. I knew this would be last time I would be this close to him. I lifted my hand and brought it close to his neck. I was tempted to touch him, hold him close. Kiss him. The emotions came rushing through me...I didn't want to break up with him. I did not want goodbye to be the only truth we knew. I stopped myself before I could ask him to stay. I loved him and he love...

After the tiring day I had today all I wanted was to sit on my balcony, pour some chilled white wine and finish reading 50 shades of Grey by E. L James. My mind was a bit preoccupied though, distracted could be a better word. Mostly by Christian Grey.... I smiled at the thought of this man, in my mind he was a god, he was perfection, I guess his indecent proposal made me think of him as the kind of guy you look at from a far and never really get with. I had my own god, who wanted everything to do with me. I pulled out the letter he had sent to me this morning, I had read it a hundred times over already, it looked like it was sent to me years ago. I smiled. My dear Isabel, I hope you have been well. Am from doing my usual morning run which is the only distraction I have that keeps me from going crazy. I miss you Bella, your face, your eyes, your laugh...I even miss that thing you do with your nose when you are irritated...but mostly my dear Bella I miss your smile, the way it ar...

Choosing a path means having to miss out on other things. I have my whole life a head of me and am mostly wondering if in the future I will come to regret the choices I have make now. I was not afraid of committing myself before, now I think I have this strange phobia to anything that could mean serious. I want to follow all possible paths and I worry that I might end up following none. After all the romantic disappointments, can I give of myself entirely? I fear pain, loss and rejection. These things will be inevitable on the path of love, and the only way of avoiding them is by deciding NEVER to take that path at all. In order not to suffer, I have to denounce love. Its like pulling out my own eyes not to see the bad things in life..